Shane's Room

Shane and I are making a new home together. When we moved I wanted to give him a room that was for boys. I picked out some bedding and a carpet that had cars, planes and trains. The colors are very masculine - navy and forest green. I didn't want to put up cheesy kids art. I decided to make my own using scrapbooking materials.

The products are mainly from Basic Grey's Wander line including the papers, stickers, and chipboard. He's enjoyed having them over his bed. I wonder if they spur his imagination. I put them up on the wall, but they would also have made a good mobile.

Using a set of chipboard tag pages, I'm making another wall hanging for Shane. This one has pictures.

These are 2 of the 5. I really like the 4 x 5 size. It's just enough to make a cool collage and incorporate a small photo. Much easier for me to work with than ATC size which is only 2 1/2 by 3 1/2. Hope you enjoy these. Thanks for reading.

My Mother's Day

I try not to make much of a fuss over Hallmark holidays like Valentine's Day and Mother's Day. This year I did exactly what I wanted. Went to the gym, spent time with my son and some friends, and visited with my mom and dad.

Shane with a messy ice cream face.

Over at 2 Peas, they are having a content for Little Yellow Bicycle. I submitted this layout using LYB Twig.

I did some scrapbooking, but no pics to show for my work. I've got 3 new layouts and a mostly finished mini book to photograph. Be back later this week.

For the record

Scrapbooking company Echo Park has been around for just over a year. I love their For the Record collection. Occasionally I take a variety of papers and embellishments and create a vintage inspiration mini book. Besides the EP, supplies I used were Glitz Scarlett pp, Prima Pastiche chipboard pieces, stickers from 7Gypsies, American Crafts, and K and Co. The inspiration cards and canvas "create beauty" tag are from GCD Studios Melody Ross. The crocheted flower is from American Crafts and the brad is My Mind's Eye Lost and Found.

This one is unique because I've used a 7Gypsies accordian album and I left space for adding photos or ephemera. I'll bequeath this little beauty to someone special in my scrapbooking life. Thanks for reading.

Fresh Start

When I started this blog in 2009 it was about sharing my creations and my enthusiasm for scrapbooking as a craft and hobby. Last summer my life turned upside down, and I abandoned the blog and crafting for the most part. My personal life and my marriage required all my attention. Things happen. They are no one's fault and everybody's fault. Mistakes were made. Feelings hurt. If you know me or have met me in the past 12 months, chances are you know something about it. Of course I have regrets, but we do what we do because we feel a need to protect ourselves. Sometimes to stop the pain, sometimes for love.

Establishing a new life for myself and my son has taken most of my energy since last fall. New home, my own routines, my own habits. I think "you've already done this once. it's not supposed to be like this." There is a sense of loss that I've been carrying around with me for so long. Loss of self, loss of home, loss of love, loss of life. Because of this decision I made, nearly everything in my life is different than it was one year ago. Many of the people and things that were so fundamental to me are gone. Often I ask myself "now what?"

How do I know its been a year? Because Shane turned three last month. I can hardly believe my eyes. My baby is a little boy.

Here we are on his 2nd birthday. Mother and son blowing out the candles.

I've no idea what I wished for. I hope it was peace.

Here are a few layouts I've done since the beginning of 2011. This one is from the Disney Cruise we took last summer. The layout was done for a recent My Mind's Eye blog sketch challenge.

This is a layout for EMI Scrapbooking. The pictures are Shane and my brother hanging out. The paper line is Pink Paislee Hometown Summer. The title card is from Fancy Pants Rusted Sun.

This is my son and his favorite school teacher. I love that he's getting to the age where school is a fun part of his life. The paper is Crate Paper School Spirt with some October Afternoon Report Card accents.

I'm not a photographer. Adam always did that. He's not here anymore. When you don't have a partner anymore, you wonder "who will care about taking a picture of me?" If I want to capture memories of my child, my friends, my family, I have to do it. How do I capture memories of myself? Standing in front of a mirror with a camera seems staged. I recognize the importance in capturing everyday moments. I struggle with the frivolousness of photographing food I eat or random objects and occurrences. I need to get better at photographing the things in which I find beauty. Maybe if I make a conscious effort to look for them I'll see more.

Redefining myself means I redefine my creativity and if I'm going to share my creative work, then this blog will change too. I've always struggled with scrapping my feelings. To me, scrapbooking is about preserving happy family memories. It's easiest for me to scrap about my son because he's nearly always happy. He's always changing, discovering new things, and finding joy in them. His innocence is something to be coveted. Little does he know the more you learn the more difficult things become. What do you scrap when you're not happy? When your family unit no longer exists? When you'd rather forget than remember? When life is an uncertainty? I don't know.

Thank you for reading and I hope to make my updates here more frequent. There are many women in similar situations to me in the scrapbooking community. I hope I can inspire and support them through my stores and creativity. I promise to share some more introspective work in the future.